Wish list for a self published author

I wish

1. my local council would appreciate my efforts to promote the village where I live to foreigners
2. other foreigners would appreciate my sharing the experience of a foreigner adapting to this land
3. my birth country people would appreciate me highlighting the benefits from my motherland
4. my friends were more appreciative of my gift to them when they received a copy of the book

But I realise

1. I'm being selfish
2. I'm being self-centered
3. I'm too far to be useful there
4. my friends didn't ask for a copy of my book or they were just being polite

Still a writer

1. Needs appreciation to carry on
2. Has bills to pay
3. Would like an honest opinion from a reader
4. wants to share his creation with his friends and party together

So I conclude

1. I haven't succeeded as a writer
2. My writing is not making the world a better place
3. I'm selfish
4. I will just look for a paid occupation 

Thank you for reading.